My Brother

GOD IS SO WONDERFUL!!! 

My brother is not only woke but he is talking and eating! He is doing physical therapy and today he was able to walk a little with help. Now the doctors still say he is terminal but I think I will go with God's Plan!!

Prostate Cancer

My brother is dying. I don't know what to do other then pray and try to share what I have learned. I don't know if this is just a "man" thing not doing anything or telling your wife for two whole years until it became too late. From all that I have learned prostate cancer in the first stage is curable so WHY want to hold onto something that eventually has the potential to end your life? 

The cancer has entered my brothers’ bones, his lungs and at this time all the doctors can do is try to control his pain; try to make him comfortable. Maybe it’s just me but I don't understand men's thinking. The doctor told him two years after he was diagnosed that his arm would have to be removed and again he did nothing so the cancer spread. I asked him why he didn't do what the doctor said and he replied "he had to think about it" FOR TWO MORE YEARS; again, not telling his wife. By the time he finally told his wife she did just what he knew she would do. Insist on going to the doctor with him; learning everything she could and becoming his most active supporter which is what she could have done from jump-street if he had just told her. Men please understand; no matter how much you drive us crazy, no matter how many times we may think about knocking you into the middle of next week, no matter how much we fuss we still want you around living long, healthy, productive lives. We love you, we care about you and this need some men have not to share and inform is deadly to you and destructive to the family. Currently my brother is in such pain he is given medication before he can be turned. He says now he will do what the doctors say and he will not keep anything from his wife but from what I have been told it’s just a matter of months. It's too late to follow the doctors’ instructions.

I have attached a link to the website National Cancer Institute PLEASE share it, talk to the men in your life about getting a prostrate exam and then follow up. I love my brother so much; we are nine months apart in age both born in the same year. I know that God is in charge so I know I must look at this as His Will but I love my brother so much and I just want him to live.

National Cancer Institute http://www.cancer.gov/

Forgiveness Part 2

Well we are starting to wind down on the mortgage fraud cases; one has pleaded guilty, another trial is due to start Monday March 11^th and another trial is scheduled for July 1^st.  One of the most important things I have gotten out of my church is a new understanding on forgiveness. Forgiveness is not for the other person; it is for me.  Now I’ve had difficulty understanding that sentence. What do I need to forgive myself for? Well, my fear of losing my home instead of trusting in God to protect my home led me to the clutches of the scam artists and for that I needed to understand, forgive myself and let go.
 
Forgiveness does not mean forget; it doesn’t mean be silent, not sharing with others what happened to me; it means letting go of the pain. Stop giving the crooks power over me through my constant anger. Retribution is not mine; holding onto pain causes me more harm so yes, I am ready to forgive.

I will keep my web site up, my Twitter and Facebook accounts going strong for they are avenues for others who have gone through what I have. It’s important to share the knowledge I have gained through this “adventure” to help and guide others in what to do and where to get help.

Mortgage fraud is a blight on our country and those who do it have no shame and no concern for those whose homes they victimized. They are in the gutter and I’m going to leave them in the gutter; hopefully the day will come when they go to God for forgiveness but that’s on them.

 

New Journey

I have made a decision that I believe will not only enrich my life but also show me what I already have in me, the ability to forgive and maintain my peace. I have decided to become a member of Christ Universal Temple. I find such joy, openness and welcome every time I walk through the doors I believe that at this time in my life that is where I need to be. Now contrary to what may be thought this is not a difficult move for me; I am a Muslim, I believe there is no God but God. As a Muslim I believe in the Christ and I believe that we as the children of God ALL have the Christ within us so by joining C.U.T. I am expanding not only my knowledge but understanding of self. This brings me a great deal of pleasure and I look forward to the journey.

Thankful

I found a letter that I wrote 15 years ago to God asking to be blessed with a good, loving husband. Well, prayer certainly works for I got exactly what I asked for! My husband has truly been my blessing (even though he can work a nerve at times; I guess that’s just that man thing).