I wonder about myself and my inability to let go. Is letting go the same as forgiveness? At this point I don’t know if I am capable of either one. There are days when I want to just say enough but then the arrogance and disrespect shown by those who committed mortgage fraud against us makes me question if I can ever just let it go. I think it’s time I got back into my spirituality for I am truly tired of the struggle and yet to quit now would be to let those who committed mortgage fraud against us win.
I have subscribed for years to the Daily Inspiration for Better Living from Christ Universal Temple and today’s reading is “Gratitude Day” and it says “Today, I give thanks for divine order even in the mist of chaos,” when I came to that sentence it got me to thinking that there is a divine order in everything and it is up to me to find and follow that order.
Also my migraines are for me the true definition of chaos but in standing up and speaking out I hope to bring about a small form of order back to my life and hopefully to those who were scammed. So I guess I can’t quit the fight now but I am going to work on forgiving. Is it possible to forgive and still fight back?
